PS Baby

Your brother is a little guy but growing fine. He started solids and loves lots of different things, he is still very gassy though and I am sure you would have loved to join in on his farty parties. Someday I will tell him all about you when he gets older. He sure is living up to his birthweight numbers 6.66 lol the little devil. I can only imagine all the trouble you would get into together. Always yours Jack and Mummy Forever

My Light

Jack, I miss you sooo much. Your brother is a handful and I wish you were here to always keep him smiling. We call him mr grumpy and bipolar baby lol due to his mood swings. You were such an amazing child , always smiling or trying to no matter what you went through. No one lights up a room like you did and I will always miss your special light shining on my face like the sun. Mummy and Jack forever

Today

Jack,

Today is the day my heart, my life ripped in two halves .
Today is the day I started to keep the insanity at bay that creeps in everyday.
The day you suffered much more than my grief, slowly painfully.
Today is the day my ache started and hasnt stopped.

The day you died and I did not
My baby I wont forget, my everything, my always
Jack & Mummy forever

Sending

Jack,
 I thought I would send you some pics. I know you aren't going to get them. I don't believe in life after death but I thinks it's more for my own peace of mind to keep your life going. I just want so much to communicate with you. I talk to you at home as well but I only wish you were really here with me and that I didn't have to do this. Your brother is growing, he is 3 months and 12 days old. His colic is over thank goodness lol. He is still very demanding though and not as independent as you. Although he is much bigger than you ever got, he is reaching his developmental stages a bit slower. Daddy says it's because I coddle him way way too much lol. I also think you were a very very smart cookie. He absolutely hates to be put down hence me trying to type with him in my arms. He is very cuddly though, I wish you could hold him. I know if you were here he would be much more content and you would keep him very amused. I tried to get some goofy pics of him for you and Ive included a nice one of him too. I also have included one of me and Nanny's puppy. Yes he is still a puppy even though he is huge. I remember in the hospital we promised you a puppy, we tried to tempt you with everything to get you to pee but your medical problems won the fight. I know you would have enjoyed her dog, I can just see you riding on his back lol. Your kitty is doing well and we are taking good care of her, we bought her a new toy for Christmas that you would have loved to play with as well. With everything we do we feel you missing. Jack and Mummy forever





You can also see a bit of Severus's cat, she hates the camera



The orniment Daddy got for Christmas; it has all of our names on it.



My heart that whispers

Jack ,
as I hold Severus it hasnt taken away even the physical  need to have you my arms. I want to smell your smell, I want to feel your hair and touch your skin and see your smile, I want you and that will never change. Your brother is a handful by the way lol. I am astounded how happy you tried to be with what you were going through. You were and always will be our dream baby.  I miss you soooo much and wish so much you could be here with us going through your terrible  twos. My feelings are so strong for you that long after I am gone I think the wind will still whisper "Jack and Mummy forever"

Miles

The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Robert Frost

Jack -You are the beauty I could so very easily get lost in.

My everything.

Jack and Mummy forever.

ps Ive included some pics of your brother, I know you would love his silly faces.