I am so sorry my baby. I am packing your room up today and I feel like such a bad mother for doing so. Its only because Daddy and I are looking for a place with a backyard. It is so hard to do this and I cannot stop crying. I know other than using the change table and the having your story time in the rocker that you didn't spend a lot of time in it. Mummy always carried you around wherever I went and you always slept in your bassinet wherever I was as it had wheels. You never did get to use your crib. You never got to wear the millions of outfits we had for you. I had so many cute outfits that you hadn't grown into yet. This is so painful and heartbreaking. I still have your urn all comfy in your bassinet, with your favourite blankie and toys. Don't worry my baby; I wont pack that. I still wheel the bassinet around from room to room so you wont be alone.I love you my MR, my everything. Jack and Mummy forever
I am so sorry my baby. I am packing your room up today and I feel like such a bad mother for doing so. Its only because Daddy and I are looking for a place with a backyard. It is so hard to do this and I cannot stop crying. I know other than using the change table and the having your story time in the rocker that you didn't spend a lot of time in it. Mummy always carried you around wherever I went and you always slept in your bassinet wherever I was as it had wheels. You never did get to use your crib. You never got to wear the millions of outfits we had for you. I had so many cute outfits that you hadn't grown into yet. This is so painful and heartbreaking. I still have your urn all comfy in your bassinet, with your favourite blankie and toys. Don't worry my baby; I wont pack that. I still wheel the bassinet around from room to room so you wont be alone.I love you my MR, my everything. Jack and Mummy forever
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Michelle,
I am so sorry that you have to pack up Jack's things. I have not packed any of Isabella's things due to the fact that I can not bear to do it. You are not a bad mother for doing so because you will bring Jack with you into your new house. You are a great mother and I know that it is hard, but you need to remind yourself of that.
Thinking of you and Jack.
Thanks, I wish I didnt have to pack but we will be moving in a few months if we can find a place we like, we would like a house with a backyard for peace of mind. We moved here from Ontario a few months before Jack was due ( I miss it),and its busy and crowded in the city.
Oh Michelle, I know it hurts you so; better days ahead my friend. Onward and upward,I'm sure you will find a place that you can breathe easier. A place with a backyard that you can landscape & set up for you and Codie to chillax in. Good luck...hope you find it soon. Look up to the sky Michelle, deep deep breaths; Jack is with you whereever you are, smiling and giggling. He is happy that you are moving on.....change is good for you. Think of the future and all it holds for U 2.....Codie & Michelle....your wonderful journey continues....positively. X0X0
I moved a few weeks after Gavin died. I couldn't stay in that house anymore. My parents were moving so I took their old house. It's the house I lived in for many years and I felt comfort there. A stranger was going to buy it but his loan fell through so they offered it to me. I could not pack his room. My family came and did it. I would just cry when I tried. I am sorry you have to pack his things. I know it is terribly hard. xoxo
I have just found your blog and reading it through I know that there is no way you are a bad mother. Your heart. Your love. Your grace. Your honesty. Your truth. Amazing. And what a gorgeous little boy. Sending you hope and love. xxx
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