I had a dream the other night that left me feeling like crap the whole day. I hope it doesn't reoccur. I was fully aware that it was a dream when I was having it. I was suddenly in a hospital room and there in front of me was Jack's bed but he wasn't in it. I knew it was a dream that had brought me back to before Jack had passed away and I was so anxious to get to see him again. I called in the nurse and asked her where Jack was and she said he was out for a few tests but he was fine and would be back soon. I told her he wasn't fine that I needed to see him right away. She looked perplexed and didn't understand my urgency and just reiterated again that he would be back. I waited alone in that room with the silence creeping in for a few hours. With every noise that came close to the closed door I jumped up and listened to see if was my son returning only to be disappointed. After awhile longer I called in the nurse again. I told her I needed to find Jack now. I told her "you don't understand, I don't have much time, this could be my only chance!" I knew I was dreaming, I knew I would wake up soon. Sadly those were the last words I uttered and then I did wake up. I felt so jilted that even in my dream I did not get a chance to see, touch and hold Jack. It sucked.
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Oh, I'm sorry. That dream sounds awful. Thinking of sweet baby Jack. He knows how much his Mommy loves him.
Oh it is one big horrible nightmare. I am so sorry that you had that dream. Wish I could offer better words. Wishing you some peace for your broken heart.
That is such a horrible dream. How I wish this whole thing was just a nightmare...and baby Jack was still in your arms amusing you with all the cute things he used to do.
It's so unfair that he is not with you.
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