We are watching tv and every so often my heart flutters, anxiety is gripping it with intensity. Jan 4th is coming. Your surgery is almost here. I am so worried something is going to wrong, everything is going to go wrong, fear floods my body.
Where did the time go? It went into the past . My mind knows this but my heart does not. I am instantaneously both in the past and the present. Worrying , worrying for what has already come to pass. Soon the worst time of my life will begin even though it has ended or has it?. My heart flutters, it wont let me forget. I am so anxious,so nervous. D day is coming again and again.
I am still scared for you baby. Jack and Mummy forever
18 hours ago