I don't have anything beautiful to write today, I don't have words of wisdom or strength or courage. In March it will be a year since you left me my baby and I still cant imagine a whole long life without you. I feel like by now I should be stronger, I should be more of a positive example to others that are beginning this unwanted journey, that I should be not be as torn apart today as I was when I had to start walking this path. I still cant imagine my life without you Jack and today I am drowning in tears for you. The roller coaster is headed straight down. Since Jan I have actually felt worse than I did before the year ended. Maybe I am a little crazy because I have gotten by so far thinking that somehow you would come to me, that your strong will would prove stronger than science itself and as time goes by that hope is waning. I am truly dragging my feet today baby. I am probably also not making a whole lot of sense.I guess tomorrow is another day and hopefully a better one. I love you my piglet, my everything. Mommy and Jack forever
ps I just found out that my fertility appointment has been pushed up to this Thursday, I hope we get some positive results from it.
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