This and That

 I haven't posted in awhile, I think this is the longest stretch that I have went so far without posting. I haven't had alot to say. We are moving at the end of Feb, it will be hell to move again and also to deal with the anniversary of your death my baby. The good news is you will a way bigger room for your nursery and it wont be cold and drafty. I guess that old world charm just didn't work out for us LOL I wish you were here to help me pack up everything; I'm sure you  be taking everything out of the boxes that I just put in.  Don't worry Mummy is keeping your favourite stuffies out with your urn in the bassinet.

Its crunch time again and as always my period is late grrr, I wish it wouldn't play mind games with me. More than that I wish I would stop thinking about it. I know it will come, our chance without the IUI are next to nil. In any case I haven't given up that hope. We are still going to get the IUI eventually, but there are other things that have to be taken care of first. I aiming for July before my 39th birthday.

I was packing your porcelain hand and feet molds, my god you had big feet. I will have to take a pic of the mold sometime and post them. I remember your sleepers never fit, I preferred the ones with the feet in them to keep you warm, so I would always have to get sleepers that your feet would fit in. They were always to big everywhere else. You had a short little body and stumpy legs and arms yet big feet . You were so adorable. So much like your Daddy.

I was also packing your monitors and was tempted to set them up. I thought what if I could hear you again. Maybe you would talk to me. You used to  blabber up a storm. You had long conversations that made no sense. I miss your happy squeals. I miss you.

My everything, Jack and Mummy forever