I am an extremely shy person, Codie and my sis are my best friends and it can take Codie and I awhile to warm up to anyone in our lives, most of the time if someone new comes along they have to persist and insert themselves forcefully until we let them in and eventually feel comfortable with them. I also come off sounding very snotty and valley girl like when I talk in real life even though it is not my intention( I am not really like that, I just sound like that) and I have a very hard time carrying on a conversation and the pauses of silence are often misconstrued and make others feels uncomfortable. Thank you Barb and nurse Jan for never giving up.
This isn't something new, I have always had a hard time letting others in. Before Codie I was quite content living on my own and being alone. I had a nick name "the ice queen" even Codie called me that lol but it didn't stop him from asking me out at least twice daily every day for a month before I said yes. I learned then that my impression of him was also wrong. I thought he was too young( he is alot younger), immature, cocky and mouthy when I first met him. He was actually all of those things LOL but I learned on our date that he was so much more than just the persona he gave off. With some people that sooo much more just shines through but with others it may take time too see it. There persona may get in the way but once that layer is peeled back that sooo much more underneath can be really worth experiencing. I do find sadly amongst people that so many do judge a book by it's cover. I guess with this post I just wanted to poke my head out of the corner a little bit and give a hello from me land.
The ice queen
Oh there is me with some encouragement from Codie
These were taken with me at 13 weeks along, I am now 16 weeks but not much bigger yet. As you can see my age gave me a big wallop since you left me my everything. In every beat my heart whispers for you my baby, my beauty. Jack and Mummy forever.