My calender is now suddenly filled with exams and appointments, the docs are now amping up the tests and monitoring of my pregnancy as the result of Down Syndrome tests have come back with many positive markers. We have a regular ultra sound this Friday then next Wednesday we will be travelling to the BC Children's Hospital for a special ultrasound to determine Down Syndrome indications and then we will see a geneticist that will test us for familial Down Syndrome in which both Codie and I would carry a gene that would make trisomy 21 hereditary in all our children.
We are going to find out as much as we can but without having an amnio. With an amnio its a 1in 200 chance we could loose the baby and with our luck I just cant risk that. They will be doing all they can to find out and monitor the pregnancy and at the end of the month we also have the echocardiography which will monitor any heart defects.
Codie and I aren't worried about having a baby with Down Syndrome, as we know how incredibly awesome these children and adults are but we are worried about getting there as a higher percent of these babies don't reach term, are still born and if born can have heart conditions that vary in degrees of severity. I am worried, it's going to be a scary ride but I guess that is the reality as well of every pregnancy after loss. I hope after these appointments we will be able to find out alot and get some very positive results but I have a feeling even then I will still be sitting on the edge of my seat until there is a baby crying healthily in my arms.
I am counting on you my special baby to get me through, I love you. Mummy and Jack forever
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